it hurts.

You came into my life one day And since I’ve never been the same My best friend, my lover, but never my husband Then one day you came along And told me that you loved me I read that email 100 times I couldn’t believe what I was seeing The very thing I longed for Right in front of my face At first it freaked me out And people told me I’d made a mistake But I knew in my heart that what we shared Was worth the criticism My defenses dropped, but I kept nagging Like a little girl not getting her way Till one day you snapped And decided to walk away My heart is breaking Each breath I take hurts my soul The emptiness inside The lump in my throat Choking me, holding me back How could I lose the one thing I truly desired My passion and expression strangled By the cold, cold emails Still waiting to hear that it’s all a joke Waiting to hear that it’s a big mistake Longing to feel you hug me and hold me close Smelling my hair and complaining about my smoking Maybe I shouldn’t have criticized the The way you unloaded the dishwasher Maybe I shouldn’t have been annoyed When you failed to replace the toilet paper Hold me Kiss me Love me How will I get over this feeling How will I keep my sanity When can I breathe again And why is this happening to me