slipping away

Soul screaming Let me be free Mind dreaming of times past future plans clouding my tomorrow you act as if you never loved me keeping me far enough holding me close yet like you are so unsure of your decision drawing lines through all our pictures this is not a part of my vision look into my eyes and remember hold it in your heart forever don’t leave me now feel the glances we’d exchange the silly words all our own stupid voices, cake on Fridays tell me you haven’t misplaced our love exploiting my vulnerability and leaving me to ponder the things I did wrong beating myself up inside plotting the plan to lure you back imagining we’re still together and holding on to all we’ve shared the things we know about each other forcing me to believe in you time means nothing minutes just pass each one more painful than the last each breath hurts the lump is killing my throat when will it go away when will I forget the good and remember the bad wishing you’d be hurt like this your brown eyes turning into seas of salt like mine I want you to sting, and hurt, and hate To live through the hell you are giving to me Then I love you again and Beg you to stay Allowing my emotions to take over Knowing there has to be a chance To ride our bikes, and kick the soccer ball Around the yard To talk of babies and bigger houses And the cat You always hated the cat Should I have gotten rid of the cat Would it make you stay If you wanted to stay you’d be here I love you. I always will.