goodbye.

I don’t know how to say goodbye to everything we had How to let it go and pretend like I’m sleeping Like you did As I lied next to you, touching your shoulder to feel the connection Tried to keep the tears away because I know how it hurts you to hear me cry But I can’t help it I just wanted to say goodbye I’m remembering times that were so happy, things that were good All bad erased from my memory, the only thing left is happy and true I still hold on to us Every dream of you I’ve had over these years taking first place in my mind Squeezing my eyes shut to hold in the water as I feel you breathing My fingertips tingling Knowing this is the end and you will never love me again All the frustration gone now, only left with hope I shouldn’t hold Lauryn singing the words I don’t have the heart to believe My heart grabbing at straws and pushing me into panic mode Will you really go How do I say goodbye to all we shared And let you go in peace without my begging and sorrow Stay strong, hold on, love will conquer all Why don’t you want to say goodbye, too? Has it all been illusions I’ve created to seem happy Reality pushed to the side to create the perfect life Two people filled with pain from rejection Loving the other one at a time Never together Emotions singing, voices struggling to be heard Insecurities plaguing my soul and holding you at bay “no grass is ever greener than your own” And I believed you, held onto your words like a rope swinging in the air My security in your hands, my heart in your palm Tell me why you don’t want to say goodbye to me and you Pain in your eyes as you try to act like you turned it off The pain too familiar to fool me I’ve felt it, I’ve been it, I’ve lived it Take my hand, hold my eyes, tell me you enjoyed the good times And will forget some of the not-so-good Hold me in your heart Remember my resolve Steal a memory of our union Memorize my words as you walk away And let my smile be ingrained in your soul Because every smile I’ve had since I met you Held the love I feel for you And always will Till the sun stops shining Come back when you are ready and my everlasting love will be here Waiting for you, ready for you, saving a place for forgiveness