can i swim

The finality of it all the hardest to bear Dreams shattered like mirrors falling Seeing reflections of us in each piece Knowing we’ve been shattered too I can’t buy enough forgiveness Can’t steal a chest of happiness Left to pick up the shards of glass Careful not to cut myself Closing my eyes and seeing your smile Tears leaving a trail to the corners of my mouth Then falling to the floor Heavy breathing, sobs like a child How could you leave me like this Without explanation wondering consumes me My heart and soul and body and mind empty No feeling in my fingertips My toes so fucking cold I collapse in loneliness and let it all go there’s nobody there to pick me up so I fall victim to the voices in my head I should have done this I should have done that If only I’d Why didn’t I try to I could have been But these things matter not one bit the suffering holding me captive can’t escape my own personal hell trembling, trying to break free reaching out to nothing no wishes or fantasies remain no desires or hopes, no love I’m back at the beginning Can I swim?