solidarity

I watch as my soul tries to sneak into your bags Nuzzled up safely between the red sweatshirt I got you for Christmas And your socks I call to it softly: come back to me But it’s so scared of the hurt, longing, fear, and emptiness inside The lack of love, the smell of shame Don’t go I want to scream and yell and cry and convince you this is crazy Don’t leave me in my shell of mediocrity Hold my hand and pull me back again Keep me safe and wipe away the tears Each bag you take a piece of my heart, my soul, my life My time is not your time anymore, my dreams not your dreams Each waking moment just another without you And you’re so calm, working diligently to pack up your car As quickly as you possibly can Can’t stand to see me this way because you know you’re responsible Remembering promises of love and happiness and us Instead packing your shit and leaving me behind To sort through the thoughts of you and me Quit telling me it will all be ok I want throw myself behind the car and make you see it’s crazy Why haven’t you realized that you’re going to be without me And why doesn’t that numb you inside How can you carry on like nothing Deserting Rejecting Replacing Neglecting Give me back my spirit Leave it at my door And get the fuck out of here You selfish bastard.