waking up alone

Come by me baby Let me hold you and kiss you And Love you My mind’s going crazy missing you Reminded by all the things you used to do I can’t hold my head so high no more Felt it since you walked out that door My heart hurts, I just want you to come by me Let go of it all and let us be free Sharing dreams and fantasies, looks of love and lust But how could I ever, ever again give you my trust You’ve hurt me to the core, my soul genuinely wounded How do I get back up and rediscover me How can I give in and just let this be I have to turn the saddest time of my life into fun And I can’t help wondering who here won Wasn’t me, definitely not you How could it even possibly be true We’re both miserable, why play any longer Can’t you see that these things we go through just make us stronger And closer…but you’re not close now, you ran the fuck away I’m still at home waiting for you I have to smile Go to the gym and walk a mile (lol) I’ve gotta get my shit together Pick up and take care of me When I’ve never really done that before It’s overwhelming taking control When you thought you had it all along